Name: Koh Ying kai
School: Nanyang Polytechnic *Biomedical Engineering*
Class: BME0702
Hobbies: Breakdancing, Drumming
Birthday: 28th January 1989
About me: Just a happy go lucky person awaiting to make friends with you!
Rainbow within the rain link to my home.



M2U
Blythe



1. Be a better b-boy and drummer
2. More Friends ( they can never be enough)
3. Books
4. New Mobile Phone
5. A drum set
6. Drumming
7. Breakdancing
8. Wish to watch the sunset. (Never did with anyone though =( [i'll watch it with you =) ])
9. Create a band.
10.Find someone to share troubles with. (Found? Me? No?)
11. Get through my diploma with flying colours.





Gillian
My other blog
Breakdancing
Imperian
Gillian Lim (Overseas Friend! ^^)
Gayle
Irfan.
Gladys.
Shima.
Fiona.
Jan.
Wendy.



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18 th October. Thursday

FIRST THINGS FIRST. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODNEY!!!! Well you must be wondering why i didnt wish you anything today. Haha you'll find out ;) I hoped you had a good time at archery today!

Things were utterly leaving me speechless these days. Distractedness. Hospital. "Comeon im talking to you dont be so utterly obssessed with the television. Concentrate" Felt that as if i had nothing to say no matter what happened. Truth is, for a period of time i didn't care anymore. Gosh, do something so i can relight my faith in you. Read in some places that insensitivity can affect so many things at times. That is rather true to a certain extent i f i might say. At least im more or less immune to it. "There are better things to be sensitive about such trivial stuff. "The worlds needs us more than we do." " is the right sentence to it. =)) It was also this day, i decided to be the best i could. It's time to step up and be who i really am last time. A good student. I'll strive to be good mentally and phsysically. Time to get back to breakdancing. Time to be dedicated to the things which are going to do me good. Period. Maybe i was weak last time. But time will tell. I wont be weak any longer either way. Its time. Im going back to who i was physically a few years ago.

I realised this, sometimes its not what you do for people. Its why you do it for them. Perhaps it is just me. I think i would be there for any single person i know regardless if i know them well or not. Cus know this, we all need a listening ear once in a while . Who cares who listens? So long as it is appreciated.

A few months ago i realised. That sometimes the real people who would be there for you are hidden out there somewhere. I have found some. My class 0702. Perhaps they are united. I love them to bits and pieces. You know, for now, they are what i was waiting for. Good mates =) Some of course are you know joke a lot at times. Though sometimes it did hurt me once in a while. But heck =)) no one really means the things they say. Not my class I trust them and i know it =))

I never considered those who dont bother to contact you after a long hiatus sort of a good friend. To them it was used to be "go out have fun and i 'll contact you" other times its was like we dont even know each other. Of course what i have said earlier still stands, if they ever need me, ill be there.

-Its time to be who you were.
Show them.
Prove it.

/Hopped!
7:11 AM

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Oct 15 (Night)

Today was the first day of school after a rather long period of holiday ( 1 and a half months) Sadly, its not going to be as good as people in the other poly who are going to have 2 and a half months of holidays at the end of their year one. =( Reached school at 8.35 and was supposed to meet some of our classmates but they were not there yet. So i headed to the restroom to freshen myself up. It was good seeing the rest of the class today. Some whom i havent met for that holiday period. Felt like it was my first time at school all over again. Headed to our first class manufacturing technology and it was good.
Haha turned out that the computer that Carol and Fiona were using had my name on it XD Really funny and coicidental. =))

Twas' a e learning lesson so we were introduced the basics of forging tuned out there were many different kinds (extrution etc ). After that class ended early before time was up and we were give a slight break. I played with nipun's psp and there was this DJ drum game. I was quickly addicted to it. And played on with it for for the whole break period.

Later on after the short break, our next teacher the computer programmign teacher, came in and taught us yet again the basics of programming. Wow its really complicated. In hexdecimial something like 00101011 can mean just the letter " A" on the computer. As the lesson went on many people were puzzled . Mainly due to our teacher got a little too carried away and began to blabber in his, to many of us, incoherent language. But at least the lesson was fine. " you just need to tune your minds to programming language" he says. Well we shall see in the coming weeks. =) ( One thing though he did mention there were quite a few failures in programming. Scarryyy but i think i can do it)

After that lesson we headed to the lecture theater and had our Biomaterials lesson. And OMG it was funny. Our teacher apparently made a few jokes to some of his words its hard to imagine that the word " photocopy" could actually be in his hands " photo- kopi" It was dry as he kept talking in a monotonous tone but that kind of little funny things kept us going.

After that it was time to go, end of school . Me, rodney , Hafiz , Shafiq headed to the gym where there were a few year 1's learning their practical. The fitness instructor were teaching them howto use the machines and what muscles were worked when using a particular machine. After a hour of gym or so we headed home.

Well now its 8.33 pm. Ill be reading up on tomorrows things and perhaps talk to someone if its possible. But if not, ill just end my day with a little novel reading. Today was allright but i do hope tomorrow will get better. It's a 9 am- 6pm long day.

Take care blog...

-Perhaps one day, you'll realise the things i do. For you.
Ignorance can be bliss but interference can sometimes bring the best in things.
I might not be perfect in many ways, but ill be perfect for the sake of you and me.
My impression of you will never change, you'll be there little sweet 7 year old like person standing over the horizon. And i love it.
Solid facts can't change but ill be here if you need me. You know what to do.

/Hopped!
4:43 AM

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14th October ( Night)

Well first off, its time to wrap up the week. But now i would like to take this chance to wish all my malay friends a Selamat Hari Raya! =)) Hope you all have a delightful time celebrating this festive month!

Wow this week sure flew by really quick. Its school tomorrow! Well it was fun this week. going to gym and stuff. Too bad there isnt the punching machine. Me and Rodney are dying to have a go at that machine again after our pathethic 90 plus hit before the holidays. XD
Friday, went out with Gillian, really fun yet again. bought my lovely new earphones. Too bad we didn't take any pictures. Im sure itll be really nice ones again =) It was really nice seeing you smile haha i bet that day took off much of your stress and tiredness cus it did to mine. Ill be looking forward to going out again with you, next week or during your e learning week ^^.

Oh yes, F.I.R recently released a new album. After knowing about it during my outing, me and Gillian went home and searched the net for their songs and we got the whole album within one night, boy it was long but it was definately rewarding! If you all do not know about FIR they are a chinese alternative rock band. I've included a love song that i personally like in thier new album. For those who havnt heard thier new album, do go hear it! I give it 4/5 stars! And Carol if you do read this check out the part in the song on my blog. Its called " Ai guo" Faye's pitch is really high in this one so dont miss it!

This night, strangely it felt weird. Its like i dont want school to ever come, but at the same time i would love for it to come. Rather contradicting i know. but i guess its the feeling one usually gets before school starts. Well time to prepare my files for tomorrow and draw out my timetable. Its yet another time to go. Im sure blogging will get better once i start school but till then..

Farewell darling blog.

- Emotions are with the heart that one sees rightly; what is essential is invisible to the naked eye...

/Hopped!
6:31 AM

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10th October. ( Night)

Its been an intresting week for me so far since Sunday =) Been saving quite alot for the 12th
Its going to be fun, well if it happens that is.
As the rain poured today while going to school, i felt extremely good for some reason. Saw a friend in the rain, wanted to catch up with her but well i had to rush ti get m notes. Perhaps another day =)
Bought my lecture notes. Japanese, Mollecular and Cellular Technology ( LOVE IT) , Manufacturing technology, Computer Programming.
Read through japanese and by oh boy it was challenging! Hehe hope i can fare well and have a teacher i can connect with and not PCW kind of teacher ><

Well for the rest for the night dont really know what to do. Perhaps ill read a book i borrowed. And wait for a phone call. Listening to music now and the mood is really setting up. Hopefully it ends nicely for tonight planning to sleep at 1 am waiting till then. If not oh well. =)

There is no such thing as innocence, only degrees of guilt
I would be the best for everything. You'll help me.

/Hopped!
6:39 AM

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Oct 7th ( Morning)
Its 12 midnight now. How time passes as though it didnt even care enough for the world.
Day 3 of a not so wonderful week. No news from the hospital side, i hope everythings stable over there. These days its also extremely hot. On days when it rain i pray hard that it stops. Well for this week i do hope it rains moderately enough, at least to cool off so i dont have to bathe every few hours. Rooms really stuffy..

Spent the last few remaining hours of the 6th of October running downstairs my house. Trying to get things out of my head. Darn the feeling really is unimaginably frustrating, like a load on your shoulders, a parasite, a syndrome... Im almost giving up but i will not. What good is it be if i give up when i usually tell others not to. Be a good role model they say. Apply what you say to others to yourself then truly you willl be greatness. I shall do just that. Of course, im not perfect im still human. Thanks Jan for being willing to hear me out, though i havnt told you really much of anything at all, i appreciate it that you tagged and offered a listening ear =) Thanks dude.
And yes to you Gillian, i didn't forget you. Thanks for spending the night with me. Outing was great and the pictures taken were excellent. Im uploading them on friendster. And ill get the cable as soon as i get the cash. The swing was great as always. And you'll forever be the little 7 year old girl on it. =)

Well todays a new day. A New morning. I look forward to playing with Jan, his two friends, Rodney and Dennis at Teddy's place this afternoon. But for now its time to put a stop to the words that might never end.

Another time perhaps, blog

- And this was the time when i truly understood what it means by " No matter how much you help others, there are always others who would forget what you did for them. And there others who would offer to help or even check on how you are even if you do not help them at all with anything. Or even contact them often. Now thats what i call a true sense of unconditional friendship. " Perhaps i understood what you said now.

/Hopped!
9:03 AM

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Oct 6th Saturday ( Morning)

Well its the morning on a hot saturday. Thought maybe i should blog a little about yesterday. Well yesterday, my grandmother got admitted to the hospital ( Tan Tock Seng) Her lungs had bubbles and was bleeding. Had to have a tube stuck through her lungs. Really painful to watch....
These few days lots of unfortunate things are happening. My grandma couldnt even sit up properly and there was a pumping catherer constantly pumping excess blood out of her lungs.
The people looking after her were tired too so stayed over to help them out with the running around.. For the first time this year, i feel tired and just pained mentally.

Well ill blog about later on today in the night.. but till then i need to cook first and head to the hospital again.

Au revior blog.

- The silent picture that we took depecits a certain paradox in our very lives

/Hopped!
8:08 PM

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Tuesday. 2nd October

Yesterday, well felt sad and was down. A dear friend of mine passed on. Wanted someone to be with me, talk to me. Just i usually do to others when they are down, be with them. Well no one was there. I guess what goes around does not really comes around at times. Just my luck.

Wednesday. 3rd october

Went gym for the 2nd time this week. Not bad did another routine to harden up myself. It was tiring and i sweated lots. It felt good. Made me forget about the things that i did not want to be reminded and people who stayed away from you when you needed to be with someone. Ah, many tings floating into my mind now. And im really succeptable to people's personal messages at this moment of weakness. Ok im feeling bad now. Someone call me and make me feel better.
"H" friend of mine had some problems in her life and spent today talking to her making her feel better. Haha what about mine? At least she felt better =)
Better go now, perhaps im not in the right state of mind to blog. Looking forward to tomorrows basketball match.

Farewell blog.

- And we loved, rest in peace.

/Hopped!
6:21 AM

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Another day, another time to blog. Im guessing right about this post you all will know that a few posts from now will be rather a late entry.
Well on sunday, went jamming with my classmates, Shima, Hafiz, Nunman, Jan and Rodney. Went over to backbeat merchants and all i got to say is finally! After such a long time, i touched my beloved drum set. Not that i dont really touch it just that the ones i usually touch are usually synthetic ( Arcade Kinds)

Note to self: I should really get a drum set for myself so i can practise the songs we jam on a set instead of air and pillows. ><

Well we jammed "your guardian angel", "face down" by red jumpsuit apparatus. Hell Song by Sum 41. Lonely day by System Of a Down. Intro to "chapter 4" by avenged sevenfold. And lastly my personal fav. "You give love a bad name" by ATREYU!
Shima brought her bro along. Haha i hope i did not embarass myself over there. ><>

Later on after jamming we went off to play pool. Initially i was reluctant but after some psychoing from Shima and Nunman, i decided to go along. Pool was fun =) And might i add, Shima's brother really learns fast. Really good at it. After that we went home.

Yesterday, 2 nd october, Monday. We went out to meet the rest of the gang for steamboat. I was really looking forward to it since last week. Arranged to meet at 6 pm. When i reached a few others were there already. A few moments later after i settled down. The rest of the people came and we filled a lovely present with our birthday wishes to Eva. Who happened to be having her 18th birthday soon. So after writing down our wishes we headed off to take a bus to bring us to the steamboat area. The wait for the bus 400 was ridiculously long by the time it arrived. The malays, Hafiz and Nunman broke fast already. Reached there at about 7 plus.

We took our respective seats after paying for the steamboat. Teddy did really some funny stuff. And started to get some food. It was really fun... but truth is, i felt that day was not as fun as before.. Things sort of changed. Didnt really talk to the girls and we were quite seperated. Guys with the guys, girls with the girls. All the way till we went home even on the way home. Of course, if you know me well enough im always the sort of person who promotes going together and stuff. Didnt really find it as an outing as we were just talking among ourselves in our own seperate groups. Goodbye wasnt even eye to eye for some. Missed the times when we actually talked and laughed together. Oh well. =/

Goodbye blog.

- Strangely i felt that everything has changed around you all. I hope im wrong.

/Hopped!
6:49 AM

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Well, thing its time to stick to my promise to many of you. I shall revive this blog of mine. ( Seriously this time)

To start off i shall blog about a recent outing with Gillian. It was about noon when we met up. Took a quick lunch at long john silver and my oh my, it IS really nice. I ordered the potato salad that i had during the national day celebrations and it was just absoultely delicious. While Gillian had her shrimp, prawn and chicken combo meal. ( WOW, and might i add that she can really EAT)

After that we went to take a breather and went to the arcade machine and tried really REALLY hard to get a soft toy out of the accursed claw machine thingymajig. We tried for a cute grey turtle ( didnt make it, it swung out of the claw by itself) A stitch ( from the movie lilo and stitch) We almost got it cus it was really near the opening. But sadly the claw hit t away and alas it was all futile. Oh well XD We had fun

/Hopped!
8:21 AM

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