Break:PK

2009-06-10T20:04:00.000-07:00

Its been a long time hasen't it everyone.
To everyone, this might be just a single day update. I might not be posting again for maybe a long time again. But to those who sees this new post.
I warmly welcome you back.

June 11th 2009

Projects has been really stressful for me. I cannot get my design and ideas out. Time is running out and help is nowhere to be found. Not many people know about it. Its has come to a point where im about to break down. I seriously need to clear my head and find comfort. I need to talk and share how i feel.
My leg has recently been scalded with hot water, i was too careless. And the wound has been reopening quite often. When i walk its so painful that i have to grit my teeth. Cleaning the house and washing the clothes hurts the wound. Its been really lonely, for the past few weeks. No one has been at home since they went overseas but i cannot due to my exams.
Everytime i go back home from school for the past week. I face an empty dark house, quiet. Its like going back to the period when i last failed my o levels for maths. I feel nothing but emptiness inside me. People at school inquire, "why does your face look so sad?" For the record i don't know why.
Yes, Ying kai the crazy and happy guy has disappeared at least for the period of time. Why am i sharing this? I need a portal to vent it. Sometimes people do. No one knows about it though. but to those who read this, now you know.
But of course, there is always, in life no matter what happens a big picture and the small picture. I constantly remind myself before i settle down into bed that i have to focus on the big picture. "You lose the battle, to win the war" that has been always part of my philosophy. Listening to radio through the night and falling asleep only when it strikes 4 - 5 am every day isnt exactly what im cut out to maintain. Im feeling tired and weak now as i type in class during my lab session.
yes my lab class, i dont have the mood to do anything. What has happened to me.
One thing that actually sustained me from going through a complete breakdown is the remenicing of the wonderful times i had with the most wonderful partner i ever had. the times when we slapped each other sily in the train. The screaming i did whilst on the cable car due to my fear of heights.
Everytime, when things just dosent seem right and before i sleep, i look at some messages i saved. Those get me going, those give me hope, and have been ever since.
I cannot appreciate that enough =)
No amount of honeyed words and things bought with money can be enough to express what graditude i have.
Therefore, as they say action speaks louder than anything.

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Through the days in the month of June, though we havent met up cus your very busy with your project. I understand. But as the days plow through, I can see stress and emotion building up in you, projects and everything else that you face. *Hugs* Cheer up. I may not be a good speaker over how well i express my words through msn or text and im sure you know very well what im talking about.
But i know that whenever your feeling down, i want to cheer you up as you did to me.
How general this sentence might seem.
How naive can i get? I probably dont understand even half of what your facing and im trying to cheer you up? My god, stupid ying kai. ><
How true. All i can perceive is only through your blog that your feeling down. But yes,to truly understand what your facing, i need you to talk to me and share your troubles with me as i would want to share mine with you. This is the step i have to take. I promised you in the beginning and i will uphold it and i will.
From the my wishes at the side of my blog. ("Found? Me? No?")
Of course, i understand that there might be the chance that you wont want to share. But when you willing to, ill always have my listening ear ready for you and what i have a punching bag for your problems.
If you ever read this, may your day become better. Even if you dont it doesnt matter, before i sleep every night ever since April 2008, i always think in my head and wish that the day that you wake up to will be wonderful.

Its almost 12 pm now. Lessons about to end for me. Today, i hope it will get better for me. Jiayou to the both of us.

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- A will that will never flicker. A hope that will always maintain.

2008-09-07T08:57:00.000-07:00

Day 1. 9 more days
Well its been a long day. A very long and really boring day.
It was during this time i realise the importance of having a loved one missed.
At 11:56pm Singapore time. Its been more than 15 hours since i have waited for your sms to reach. during the day i have contacted M1 and i was elated that my mms was activated. I should be able to receive mms. And well smses from Singapore to the US is 15 cents like you said. And all smses received are free.

I miss you.

Damn man that feeling came back to me. I teared when i called you when you were on the way to the airport. I was worried. No kidding. weird eh?
Somehow. I wept slightly till i slept. Some kind of man i am eh? Heh oh well.
As of now my dear, i am listening to the songs that was in my mp3 player when i met you. Those were the songs that i listened to and brings back such memories. The songs which i constantly heard when i walked you back home during those first few days. And the songs i listened when i walked all the way back from serangoon as there wasnt any bus or mrt.

Such memories. Ah... =)

Slowly time will pass. What i did today wasnt anything much. Worked out for 1 hour but i got bored of it. There wasnt much kick to working out. Perhaps i will do better tomorrow. After writing this first entry into the absence of your presense, i will start composing a sms to send to you. Its 12 midnite 04 mins now. Still no message. I will take the initiative and send you the sms. i hope you can receive it.

"Sharing all this different feelings from under the cover"
"Looming moon"

Above are the distinct lyrics from the song im listening now. The band "Secret and Whisper"

I really wonder what i am going to do tomorrow. I will go look out for more bands. Hehe
We ARE SO GOING TO DO MANY THINGS TOGETHER when you come back.

My dear. Absence only makes the heart and love go so much stronger and further.
Its proven by yours truly. =)

Smile dear and enjoy yourself. When you come back. I shall embrace you with new found happiness.

-Yk

- This love shall never flicker.

2008-09-06T07:51:00.000-07:00

Hubby, don't worry. I will be back soon. Remember what i say ar. Oh ya, don't anyhow eat ar. Eat less oily and heaty food hor. Sms me before you sleep and when you wake up. Same here, i will do the same too. Love ya. Will miss you lots. Don't worry, i will hug the pillow to sleep. Hee. Muacks. Huggies. See you in 10days time. Remember what i say ar.

2008-06-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

I guess that you would not be blogging so i shall blog again on your behalf. It has been 2months since we had been together and you are still as crazy as ever. I enjoyed myself today even though this post was like written on the 12may2008. But i know i enjoyed myself because everytime when i am out with you, i had lots of fun. Ya so, 2months down and still many years ahead to go. Thank you for being there for me when i needed you and i am really thankful that you are by my side. I love you, hubby.

2008-05-11T10:35:00.000-07:00

Wahaha, i have hacked into my hubby account yet again to update. He is just too lazy to blog. Or rather should i say no time. Haha. Because most of his time is spend with me. Yeah. So ya, i shall say something to my hubby here.

"Ever since i been out with you, i feel that i have been in a fairytale. A very crazy one. Must be the most crazy one among all. But it was fun being with you. You have done things that others have not done and i must say that you are unique. I am so glad to have found you and lucky enough to have you by my side. Just want to thank you for the times spend so far and the love&care&concern&encouragement you have given me so far. Sorry for making you feel pissed/sad or whatever when i snapped at you when you tried to wake me up from my sleep. Last but not least, I LOVE YOU HUBBY! Let's continue this crazy fairytale all the way."

Okay, i guess that all i want to say now. I shall sleep or my hubby so gonna kill me when he sees this. =X Nights & i miss you. =) So don't kill me. Haha.

2008-05-02T09:30:00.001-07:00

I LOVE MY HUBBY!!! *muack*

2007-12-22T18:57:00.000-08:00

Its been a long time since ive blog, now that ive got time again, its time to do it.

Well, lots of things have been happening and first things first im glad that my tests are over. Not yet actually still have molecular but yeah. Most of it is over =)

Went on a hiking trip on friday walked from pierce to macritchie it was quite a long hike and almost slipped along the way. It was tiring. Went later on the HSBC treetop walk. There was this suspended bridge and there were monkeys on it. Nipun, was terrified of them. LOL

Oh yes, there was this tower named jelutong tower, we climbed to the top of it and took this picture. It was great the wind and all. COOLNESS

Near the end it started to rain very heavily and the thing is that we were still hiking in the woods, and there was no proper path. IT was realy slippery and there were rocks everywhere. Soon after it started to flood and we just didnt care anymore we got really wet and our shoes were soaked in water. We just wanted to get to the nearest shelter. Thankfully it was quite near the end and we dried off. And then headed for pratahouse. Truly it was a tiing day.

( Picture taken atop of Jelutong tower)

23rd Sunday

Went on a christmas party yesterday and it was really fun. We met at boon lay mrt station and then headed to eat. Too bad some of us were late so we had to rush to have dinner. Took off soon after to take the bus which unfortunately was the wrong BUS! And i tapped my card losing a few dollars in the process. FIONA!!! oh well. =)

The party was great fun met a lot of people there lol and i think i remembered everyone from there right now. well those that we met. The play was funny and the talk from the guy from planet shakers was really good! Made me think. We talked and took pictures till 10 plus? And then headed off. Haha well iwould want to head there for other events again the people are great. Haha well i'll blog about others next time but till then!

2007-11-24T19:16:00.000-08:00

Sunday, 25th October
Almost died down on my internet activity. Thank goodness i didn't. Been doing up my project work in school and other things to catch up which i really didn't do in the past few weeks. I don't know how long ill be back blogging but well, let's just say that im glad to be back =) One thing for sure, im proud of our molecular project work. It is, to me, been really nicely done up. It hasn't finished yet but it will be soon. For those who do not know what i'm talking about, heres a link. http://lifesci-h2.pbwiki.com/Biotechnolgy+and+improved+crops Do let me know what you think about it. =))

Went to eat botak jones yesterday on the 24th. Thing is, had to wait for like 1hour before our food came as there were really many many many people ordering it. When it came, the portion was HUGE. I thought i would be hungry after eating it but i was really wrong, i became so full that i couldnt walk. It was really as they say " Damn good food at a damn good price" True to their quote.

The day before, on the 23rd. The class went to hit up some badminton in the sports hall. It was really fun! Played till we sweated gallons. I'm looking forward to the session on the coming Monday. This time with more people and the girls. Which they couldnt make it before as they were doing their poject on Friday. Been saving up a lot these days. I hope that it will come to proper. And dang while saving it caused my stomach it's life.
The botak jones yesterday was a sacrifice that i had to make. So it's time to tighten up my belt and go on. =))

5 days to go.

-Strangely as it is, i want to talk to you but there wasn't the power to. Whenever i turn to look at you . I think i'm starting to feel something from the inside. Perhaps i would have the power to say something. And i believe that i will. i think it's time to resume the fun we had before this semester started.

2007-11-10T05:47:00.000-08:00

10th October, Saturday

Havent been really blogging for the past few weeks. Been rather busy, some of you would have known as to why.

Things have gotten better in a certain sense, my grandmother has moved back from the hospital toher own home. I hope it stays that way for good. In the meantime, i guess i would be routinely going to her place to check on her.

Sadly, i have been missing out on a lot of things that were happening among my friends in school. Things like outings for badminton ( fav sport) and eating at pratahouse ( one which we decided to go to last sem and apparently procrastinated saying "one day" we would) and that one day was the day i happened not to go. Dang, from what ive heard lots of people came. Even those that do not go out with us often happened to go. Samuel (STANDARD) for example. It was a rather big class event. I do hope that we get to go again be it badminton or pratahouse.
Lately, perhaps its just me, but i felt that ive been drifting away from a few of my classmates. We werent just interacting as we were before anymore.

Darn, that isnt good.

Strangely, certain people were expressing different behaviour towards me. I was surprised, really surprised.
Couldnt really be bothered anymore on that faithful friday.
Kind of got into my head.

Stayed back till 9pm alone to study in the library.
How peaceful it was, but also.
How lonely it felt.
Painful.
Heck i brought it to myself. Feeling went away after i went home and ran downstairs my house a few times.

I do have someone to take care.
There are people i care.
You all are part of the people i care about.
Perhaps we have'nt been talking much, but concern wise i still will share the same to you all, my mates in school.
Certain words had hurt hard. Sarcasm at its best shot. And being angry does not give one the right to be bad. Remember to compose yourself.
Though im sure it wasnt meant that way.
Im just tired of the responsibilities i had to partake for the past few weeks, maybe thats why im a little more fragile.
" You? *sigh* poor thing* "
" Im not a poor thing"

- Memories are important, because sometimes they are all that you have.

2007-10-18T07:11:00.000-07:00

18 th October. Thursday

FIRST THINGS FIRST. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RODNEY!!!! Well you must be wondering why i didnt wish you anything today. Haha you'll find out ;) I hoped you had a good time at archery today!

Things were utterly leaving me speechless these days. Distractedness. Hospital. "Comeon im talking to you dont be so utterly obssessed with the television. Concentrate" Felt that as if i had nothing to say no matter what happened. Truth is, for a period of time i didn't care anymore. Gosh, do something so i can relight my faith in you. Read in some places that insensitivity can affect so many things at times. That is rather true to a certain extent i f i might say. At least im more or less immune to it. "There are better things to be sensitive about such trivial stuff. "The worlds needs us more than we do." " is the right sentence to it. =)) It was also this day, i decided to be the best i could. It's time to step up and be who i really am last time. A good student. I'll strive to be good mentally and phsysically. Time to get back to breakdancing. Time to be dedicated to the things which are going to do me good. Period. Maybe i was weak last time. But time will tell. I wont be weak any longer either way. Its time. Im going back to who i was physically a few years ago.

I realised this, sometimes its not what you do for people. Its why you do it for them. Perhaps it is just me. I think i would be there for any single person i know regardless if i know them well or not. Cus know this, we all need a listening ear once in a while . Who cares who listens? So long as it is appreciated.

A few months ago i realised. That sometimes the real people who would be there for you are hidden out there somewhere. I have found some. My class 0702. Perhaps they are united. I love them to bits and pieces. You know, for now, they are what i was waiting for. Good mates =) Some of course are you know joke a lot at times. Though sometimes it did hurt me once in a while. But heck =)) no one really means the things they say. Not my class I trust them and i know it =))

I never considered those who dont bother to contact you after a long hiatus sort of a good friend. To them it was used to be "go out have fun and i 'll contact you" other times its was like we dont even know each other. Of course what i have said earlier still stands, if they ever need me, ill be there.

-Its time to be who you were.
Show them.
Prove it.

2007-10-15T04:43:00.000-07:00

Oct 15 (Night)

Today was the first day of school after a rather long period of holiday ( 1 and a half months) Sadly, its not going to be as good as people in the other poly who are going to have 2 and a half months of holidays at the end of their year one. =( Reached school at 8.35 and was supposed to meet some of our classmates but they were not there yet. So i headed to the restroom to freshen myself up. It was good seeing the rest of the class today. Some whom i havent met for that holiday period. Felt like it was my first time at school all over again. Headed to our first class manufacturing technology and it was good.
Haha turned out that the computer that Carol and Fiona were using had my name on it XD Really funny and coicidental. =))

Twas' a e learning lesson so we were introduced the basics of forging tuned out there were many different kinds (extrution etc ). After that class ended early before time was up and we were give a slight break. I played with nipun's psp and there was this DJ drum game. I was quickly addicted to it. And played on with it for for the whole break period.

Later on after the short break, our next teacher the computer programmign teacher, came in and taught us yet again the basics of programming. Wow its really complicated. In hexdecimial something like 00101011 can mean just the letter " A" on the computer. As the lesson went on many people were puzzled . Mainly due to our teacher got a little too carried away and began to blabber in his, to many of us, incoherent language. But at least the lesson was fine. " you just need to tune your minds to programming language" he says. Well we shall see in the coming weeks. =) ( One thing though he did mention there were quite a few failures in programming. Scarryyy but i think i can do it)

After that lesson we headed to the lecture theater and had our Biomaterials lesson. And OMG it was funny. Our teacher apparently made a few jokes to some of his words its hard to imagine that the word " photocopy" could actually be in his hands " photo- kopi" It was dry as he kept talking in a monotonous tone but that kind of little funny things kept us going.

After that it was time to go, end of school . Me, rodney , Hafiz , Shafiq headed to the gym where there were a few year 1's learning their practical. The fitness instructor were teaching them howto use the machines and what muscles were worked when using a particular machine. After a hour of gym or so we headed home.

Well now its 8.33 pm. Ill be reading up on tomorrows things and perhaps talk to someone if its possible. But if not, ill just end my day with a little novel reading. Today was allright but i do hope tomorrow will get better. It's a 9 am- 6pm long day.

Take care blog...

-Perhaps one day, you'll realise the things i do. For you.
Ignorance can be bliss but interference can sometimes bring the best in things.
I might not be perfect in many ways, but ill be perfect for the sake of you and me.
My impression of you will never change, you'll be there little sweet 7 year old like person standing over the horizon. And i love it.
Solid facts can't change but ill be here if you need me. You know what to do.

2007-10-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

14th October ( Night)

Well first off, its time to wrap up the week. But now i would like to take this chance to wish all my malay friends a Selamat Hari Raya! =)) Hope you all have a delightful time celebrating this festive month!

Wow this week sure flew by really quick. Its school tomorrow! Well it was fun this week. going to gym and stuff. Too bad there isnt the punching machine. Me and Rodney are dying to have a go at that machine again after our pathethic 90 plus hit before the holidays. XD
Friday, went out with Gillian, really fun yet again. bought my lovely new earphones. Too bad we didn't take any pictures. Im sure itll be really nice ones again =) It was really nice seeing you smile haha i bet that day took off much of your stress and tiredness cus it did to mine. Ill be looking forward to going out again with you, next week or during your e learning week ^^.

Oh yes, F.I.R recently released a new album. After knowing about it during my outing, me and Gillian went home and searched the net for their songs and we got the whole album within one night, boy it was long but it was definately rewarding! If you all do not know about FIR they are a chinese alternative rock band. I've included a love song that i personally like in thier new album. For those who havnt heard thier new album, do go hear it! I give it 4/5 stars! And Carol if you do read this check out the part in the song on my blog. Its called " Ai guo" Faye's pitch is really high in this one so dont miss it!

This night, strangely it felt weird. Its like i dont want school to ever come, but at the same time i would love for it to come. Rather contradicting i know. but i guess its the feeling one usually gets before school starts. Well time to prepare my files for tomorrow and draw out my timetable. Its yet another time to go. Im sure blogging will get better once i start school but till then..

Farewell darling blog.

- Emotions are with the heart that one sees rightly; what is essential is invisible to the naked eye...

2007-10-10T06:39:00.000-07:00

10th October. ( Night)

Its been an intresting week for me so far since Sunday =) Been saving quite alot for the 12th
Its going to be fun, well if it happens that is.
As the rain poured today while going to school, i felt extremely good for some reason. Saw a friend in the rain, wanted to catch up with her but well i had to rush ti get m notes. Perhaps another day =)
Bought my lecture notes. Japanese, Mollecular and Cellular Technology ( LOVE IT) , Manufacturing technology, Computer Programming.
Read through japanese and by oh boy it was challenging! Hehe hope i can fare well and have a teacher i can connect with and not PCW kind of teacher ><

Well for the rest for the night dont really know what to do. Perhaps ill read a book i borrowed. And wait for a phone call. Listening to music now and the mood is really setting up. Hopefully it ends nicely for tonight planning to sleep at 1 am waiting till then. If not oh well. =)

There is no such thing as innocence, only degrees of guilt
I would be the best for everything. You'll help me.

2007-10-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

Oct 7th ( Morning)
Its 12 midnight now. How time passes as though it didnt even care enough for the world.
Day 3 of a not so wonderful week. No news from the hospital side, i hope everythings stable over there. These days its also extremely hot. On days when it rain i pray hard that it stops. Well for this week i do hope it rains moderately enough, at least to cool off so i dont have to bathe every few hours. Rooms really stuffy..

Spent the last few remaining hours of the 6th of October running downstairs my house. Trying to get things out of my head. Darn the feeling really is unimaginably frustrating, like a load on your shoulders, a parasite, a syndrome... Im almost giving up but i will not. What good is it be if i give up when i usually tell others not to. Be a good role model they say. Apply what you say to others to yourself then truly you willl be greatness. I shall do just that. Of course, im not perfect im still human. Thanks Jan for being willing to hear me out, though i havnt told you really much of anything at all, i appreciate it that you tagged and offered a listening ear =) Thanks dude.
And yes to you Gillian, i didn't forget you. Thanks for spending the night with me. Outing was great and the pictures taken were excellent. Im uploading them on friendster. And ill get the cable as soon as i get the cash. The swing was great as always. And you'll forever be the little 7 year old girl on it. =)

Well todays a new day. A New morning. I look forward to playing with Jan, his two friends, Rodney and Dennis at Teddy's place this afternoon. But for now its time to put a stop to the words that might never end.

Another time perhaps, blog

- And this was the time when i truly understood what it means by " No matter how much you help others, there are always others who would forget what you did for them. And there others who would offer to help or even check on how you are even if you do not help them at all with anything. Or even contact them often. Now thats what i call a true sense of unconditional friendship. " Perhaps i understood what you said now.

2007-10-05T20:08:00.001-07:00

Oct 6th Saturday ( Morning)

Well its the morning on a hot saturday. Thought maybe i should blog a little about yesterday. Well yesterday, my grandmother got admitted to the hospital ( Tan Tock Seng) Her lungs had bubbles and was bleeding. Had to have a tube stuck through her lungs. Really painful to watch....
These few days lots of unfortunate things are happening. My grandma couldnt even sit up properly and there was a pumping catherer constantly pumping excess blood out of her lungs.
The people looking after her were tired too so stayed over to help them out with the running around.. For the first time this year, i feel tired and just pained mentally.

Well ill blog about later on today in the night.. but till then i need to cook first and head to the hospital again.

Au revior blog.

- The silent picture that we took depecits a certain paradox in our very lives

2007-10-03T06:21:00.001-07:00

Tuesday. 2nd October

Yesterday, well felt sad and was down. A dear friend of mine passed on. Wanted someone to be with me, talk to me. Just i usually do to others when they are down, be with them. Well no one was there. I guess what goes around does not really comes around at times. Just my luck.

Wednesday. 3rd october

Went gym for the 2nd time this week. Not bad did another routine to harden up myself. It was tiring and i sweated lots. It felt good. Made me forget about the things that i did not want to be reminded and people who stayed away from you when you needed to be with someone. Ah, many tings floating into my mind now. And im really succeptable to people's personal messages at this moment of weakness. Ok im feeling bad now. Someone call me and make me feel better.
"H" friend of mine had some problems in her life and spent today talking to her making her feel better. Haha what about mine? At least she felt better =)
Better go now, perhaps im not in the right state of mind to blog. Looking forward to tomorrows basketball match.

Farewell blog.

- And we loved, rest in peace.

2007-10-02T06:49:00.000-07:00

Another day, another time to blog. Im guessing right about this post you all will know that a few posts from now will be rather a late entry.
Well on sunday, went jamming with my classmates, Shima, Hafiz, Nunman, Jan and Rodney. Went over to backbeat merchants and all i got to say is finally! After such a long time, i touched my beloved drum set. Not that i dont really touch it just that the ones i usually touch are usually synthetic ( Arcade Kinds)

Note to self: I should really get a drum set for myself so i can practise the songs we jam on a set instead of air and pillows. ><

Well we jammed "your guardian angel", "face down" by red jumpsuit apparatus. Hell Song by Sum 41. Lonely day by System Of a Down. Intro to "chapter 4" by avenged sevenfold. And lastly my personal fav. "You give love a bad name" by ATREYU!
Shima brought her bro along. Haha i hope i did not embarass myself over there. ><>

Later on after jamming we went off to play pool. Initially i was reluctant but after some psychoing from Shima and Nunman, i decided to go along. Pool was fun =) And might i add, Shima's brother really learns fast. Really good at it. After that we went home.

Yesterday, 2 nd october, Monday. We went out to meet the rest of the gang for steamboat. I was really looking forward to it since last week. Arranged to meet at 6 pm. When i reached a few others were there already. A few moments later after i settled down. The rest of the people came and we filled a lovely present with our birthday wishes to Eva. Who happened to be having her 18th birthday soon. So after writing down our wishes we headed off to take a bus to bring us to the steamboat area. The wait for the bus 400 was ridiculously long by the time it arrived. The malays, Hafiz and Nunman broke fast already. Reached there at about 7 plus.

We took our respective seats after paying for the steamboat. Teddy did really some funny stuff. And started to get some food. It was really fun... but truth is, i felt that day was not as fun as before.. Things sort of changed. Didnt really talk to the girls and we were quite seperated. Guys with the guys, girls with the girls. All the way till we went home even on the way home. Of course, if you know me well enough im always the sort of person who promotes going together and stuff. Didnt really find it as an outing as we were just talking among ourselves in our own seperate groups. Goodbye wasnt even eye to eye for some. Missed the times when we actually talked and laughed together. Oh well. =/

Goodbye blog.

- Strangely i felt that everything has changed around you all. I hope im wrong.

2007-10-01T08:21:00.000-07:00

Well, thing its time to stick to my promise to many of you. I shall revive this blog of mine. ( Seriously this time)

To start off i shall blog about a recent outing with Gillian. It was about noon when we met up. Took a quick lunch at long john silver and my oh my, it IS really nice. I ordered the potato salad that i had during the national day celebrations and it was just absoultely delicious. While Gillian had her shrimp, prawn and chicken combo meal. ( WOW, and might i add that she can really EAT)

After that we went to take a breather and went to the arcade machine and tried really REALLY hard to get a soft toy out of the accursed claw machine thingymajig. We tried for a cute grey turtle ( didnt make it, it swung out of the claw by itself) A stitch ( from the movie lilo and stitch) We almost got it cus it was really near the opening. But sadly the claw hit t away and alas it was all futile. Oh well XD We had fun

( Cute toy)

Oh yes later we we headed for precious tots and chanced upon this adorable smiley toy. ( Above) Unfortunately it was too expensive at that moment in time. ( I had a jamming session and a steamboat outing the next few days. Which i really wouldnt want to miss it for the world)
So moving on, had ben's and jerry's ice cream at raffles place. And then i received a call from shima using fiona's mobile phone, she called to ask where to alight to get to penisula. apparently she had to get somethings from that place. =) After the ice cream( which by the way was REDICUOUSLY expensive. ) We headed to esplanade, cus i wanted to head there to the rooftops to chill out for a moment. And well along the way we took these

. ( Really nice art works) Rather emo though.

And along the path there were little adorable kids painting the walls for a art festival. Seeing them makes me want to have my own kids haha. I absolutely love kids. XD

Well we chilled at the rooftops at esplanade for an hour or so. Lovely wind. And then headed to a taiwan food store at marina square and bought a XXL chicken chop to share. Then we decided its time to head home. Decided to send Gillian home since it was rather late and her house is really deep inside. But something caught Gillian's eye while on the way home. Guess what? YESS its the swing that we used to play while we were little kids. Gillian decided to become a 7 year old kid and play on the swing. At first i was reluctant, only pushing her much to her horror really high up. After countless Pouting and pleading from her i decided to get on the swing myself. " Heck i thought, what harm could it do right? " But i was wrong a few swings later i started to compete with her to see who could go higher. It was amazingly fun hehe. After that i sent her home and then took off home myself. Thus ending a intresting day.

And this is where i shall end my blog.

-Together we will float like angels... - Chiodos.

2007-05-29T21:40:00.000-07:00

After a long hiatus ( yet again...) i must apologise, think its time to revive this long dead blog of mine.

2006-10-13T08:12:00.000-07:00

Ok i must admit im a really hugeeee fan of the anime Deathnote, and upon hearing that the movie is releasing soon in Singapore, im absolutely thrilled. Yagami Light is a brilliant college student who, one day, finds a notebook simply titled "Death Note." Inside of this book is a list of rules and details as for the use of the "Death Note." When he realizes the power he holds, he decides he's going to make over the world. He wants to make it into a better place by killing those who do others harm. He has been nicknamed by the police "Kira." L, a brilliant detective who lives in secrecy, rises from the shadows and puts his life on the line trying to capture Light. Both L and Light believe themselves on the side of Justice, and the two match wits trying to show exactly which of them is "good" and which of them is "evil."

The manga series has a really good plo, in fact one of the best in the manga i have seen. The characters are really memorable. And the battle of wits between Light ( The antagonist and protagonist) and L the detective is really worth watching.

Anyway im looking for people intrested to go watch the movie with me. Drop me a sms or tag me. Till then cya!

2006-09-23T00:10:00.000-07:00

Hehheh, cool friday.. planned out a day at the end of the year for all my friends to have fun. Darn the internets slow.... Think my blogs getting a little big for uploading stuff. Waited ages man..
Speaking of fridays, here comes the weekends! Hmm this weekend is the finals of the Singapore Idol? Who do you all support? I think perhaps Johnathan will win, a change of routine i guess since taufik was the last winner. if guess if hady wins, it wont be too suprising, why? Reason being that malays are very united and i pesonally like that about them. ^^

Ok so besides that on friday night, played basket ball with a few people and trashed them. It started when i and a few other neighbours were plaiyng basketball at a court near my house when some people just came in and challenged us to a game.

Terms were simple, the winner will take the whole court and the loser leaves. Guess its quite common for these challenges to happen since there are so few courts around Toa payoh.
Thankfully my friends and i practised the 45 degree chop shot, bunny hop and layup before the match. those were the key point to our team's win. And woot i threw in the ball with the help of the board from half court. Lol never was good at aiming though. Kind of like better at layups and stuff.^^

2006-09-17T05:39:00.000-07:00

Ok.. It has been exactly 2 weeks since i have last posted due to some technical error with my firewall. Apparrently, my firewall has decided to deny access to my blogspot posts thus im not able to make any. Oh well problem solved and heres the first update.

These days must have been the busiest days of my life! Oh boy, school was like my other home, and helping people has never been so tiring!

Over the week i have also gone to the Superstar auditions to take a look and to supposrt a few of my friends. Lol the whole place is just packed! Most of the people from my block who were teens were like all there, some in the auiditions and some just checking out the fun.

But then from tiredness comes a time for me to chill out and relax. Recently, theres a online game i have been playing which my guildmaster( leader, boss whatever you call it.) Has had his wedding both online and offline. Since i was busy, i had only time to go for his online wedding. Below is a picture of the wedding.

Its rather small over here, perhaps it will be much bigger when i post it...

And this is me over here >>>>>>>>>>>>>

Well i wonder any intresting things happened for you all. Hope to hear from you all soon!

"Truth is like the melting time." Yk

2006-09-03T07:34:00.000-07:00

Since this month is the arts festival, i chanced upon many different kind of art pieces around the places i go. One particular art piece attracted me deeply.
That is this one im about to show below.

Well familar with it? For those of you who do not know this, this piece of art is called " The Scream" a rather popular art piece from 1893.

The Scream is a seminal series of experissonist paintings by a Norwegian artist Edvard Munch. Regarded by many as his most important work, it is said by some to symbolize modern man taken by an attack of existential angst, with the skyline inspired by the red twilights seen after the 1883 eruption of Krakatoa.

The landscape in the background is Oslofjord, viewed from the hill of Ekeberg. The Norwegian word skrik is usually translated as "scream", but is cognate with the English shriek. Occasionally, the painting has been called The Cry.

There is a tempera on cardboard version formerly in the Munch Museum, Oslo, Norway and an oil, tempera, and pastel on cardboard in the National Gallery (shown to right), also in Oslo.
A third version is also owned by the Munch Museum, and a fourth is owned by Petter Olsen. Munch later also translated the picture into a lithograph so the image could be reproduced in reviews all over the world. Since 1994, two separate versions of The Scream have been stolen by art thieves, but both were eventually recovered.

Well hope this post will make you understand a bit more about this piece ^^ till then cya!

" Reality is what we percive. Vituality is what we seek." Yk

2006-08-30T05:14:00.000-07:00

Oh my, i do not know what has happened but then my internet connect has some problem and it does not connect to the internet. Thus, i am unable to sumit my post i made on Monday, but here it is.

Ah finally, after countless days in rest, i am finally back with updatiing by blog. My sincerest apologies to those who have been visiting my blog but were not able to see the new posts. Lets talk about fears this time. AS you now everyone has their own fears. For me im afraid of beetles lol especially those who fly and go 'click' click' at the same time. It makes me disgusted. In the mean time i would like those who visit my blog to post what you are afraid of and i will make another post tomorrow . Take care ! ^^

2006-08-29T07:38:00.001-07:00

Ah finally, after countless days in rest, i am finally back with updatiing by blog.
My sincerest apologies to those who have been visiting my blog but were not able to see the new posts.
Lets talk about fears this time. AS you now everyone has their own fears. For me im afraid of beetles lol especially those who fly and go 'click' click' at the same time. It makes me disgusted.
In the mean time i would like those who visit my blog to post what you are afraid of and i will make another post tomorrow . Take care ! ^^

2006-08-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

2006-08-20T05:23:00.000-07:00

Sunday 20 august,

Argh, to start things off, i had a splitting headache this morning the moment i woke up. Terrible moment. The headache was coming in pulses and lasted throughout the day. The sniffles came in to join the 'party' and ended up making me feel even worse. T.T
Even though its the night as im writing this post, im still feeling the headach trobbing my head. So i decided to leave the post i wanted to do today to tomorrow watch out for tomorrows blog! XD
Take care everyone!

" Woven together by fate, each shall rise to face their destiny." Yk

2006-08-19T03:51:00.000-07:00

Its the weekends yet again! Woo~

Hmm this week has been rather uneventful, the daily runs i have has been reduced significantly as i am experiencing fatigue problems everytime i run so i guess its like "pain is no gain" rather than "no pain no gain" im sure some of you all will experience this if you all workout too much. I guess its also due to the heat wave these days. Crazy weather... Singapore just gets "better" and "better" doesn't it ? XD

Right, lets talk about something. Hmm... ah yes the exams draw near as the end of the year approaches. Many of the students in school are busy mugging away for their exams. Im sure you all who are schooling would be too studying for your end of the year exam or the second semester tests. Heres wishing all of you all a well study period. ^^

You know the question has been bugging me. It has been talked about on all sorts of media and even would be once on your composition paper as one of the topics to write about.

The question is, " Are exams really important? Do they really determine or fate?" We all know that piece of paper which is oh so fragile, is the key to our future lives. Whether we make or break depends on it. It is also because of that that many people has considered whether it is really good to stay in Singapore, which is a country full of competition. " Kiasu" parents make their child learn all sorts of things such as piano for example, but they have forgotten about one thing. Does their child really have an intrest in it?

This results in the possiblitlity that the child might not have a carefree childhood. but of course the child would not know that as it is a daily routine for him/ her to learn these things. Of course learning these things are good for cultivating oneself but at the same time, we must not forget that oo much 'cultivating' might break ones mind. Examples of students ending their lives because of studies have been rather abundant in news. Movies like the popular ' I not Stupid" by jack neo has shown this kind of situation where the lesser abled students are discrimminated against.

Im sure all of you have experienced matters like being nagged at for not studying or getting discrimmanted because you are one of the few failures in class. In addition, some of you might be even compared with other people be it results or the number of talents. (Being able to play the vioin, etc) Movies like the popular ' I not Stupid" by jack neo has shown this kind of situation where the lesser abled students are discrimminated against and scenes of pressure leading to attempted suicide.

I have wondered why dont Singapore be less focused on the number of As we score for our exams and instead judge us on what we can do. It is very true some people who can study very well if put in a situation where one has to do on the spot thinking, and manual things, would not be able to be up to it.

For me i would rather have a kind of system that would place us into a 50 percent theory and 50 percent practicality assesment What say you? Comment on the tagboard! ^^

" In this night where sin and illusion intertwines in funeral splendor" Yk

2006-08-17T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hey hey all ^^ How ya all been?
Let me use today to talk a little about what kind of music i like. Hope that it will let you know more about me.
Its quite simple actually, i listen to all genres of music except for songs by 50 cent, jay z and stuff like that. I shall first touch on visual kei rock bands in japan. This is a genre that i recently exposed myself to. Visual Kei band, its name speaks for itself. they promote their music through visuals, often elaborate and perhaps gory.
Their music can range from ballads to fast rock. What i like about them is their ability to create unusual music music that perhaps transcends into the realms of the blues and jazz. That makes their music unusual and original. Of such bands i would like to reccomend 3 of them.
They are Alice 9, Dir En grey, Malice Mizer ( now known as Moi Dix Mois).
Perhaps some of you have heard about them and perhaps not give their music a try. For those new into this genre, they are similar to the band Lucify in the recent Superband competition.
Some people looking at them might call people who listen to them sick, crazy stuff like that.
But they should overlook the visual aspect of these bands and delve into thier music. Only there can they find what these bands are actually creating.

Below are a few pictures of Alice nine

If you all are curious and would like to hear some of their songs, contact me through the tag board or through msn and i will gladly send you a sample of their songs. ^^
Tell me too how you think of them in the tag board too. I will continue with differnt genres of music soon. Keep checking back! Hope to hear from youon the tagboard!

2006-08-14T05:09:00.000-07:00

Whoo! Saturday's fireworks display was very nice! But whew the process of getting there is terrible. There was so many people and even worsethe train that i was taking had a fight going on as there was some disagreements between a few passengers. Too many people were trying to squeeze into the train making it seem like that if one does not board that particular train i was on, he or she will not see the fireworks which is absurd. I was 1 and a half hours ahead of the scheuled fireworks display.
I will post the pictures of the fireworks asap once i transfer the pictures into my computer.
Seeing the fireworks reminded me of a lot of things good and bad. The colours were nice and though it was only a short 10 mins, i enjoyed every part of it. Its like first love, short and sweet.
Anyway heres the other song i promised the other day. Enjoy ! Leave your comments too again! ^^

I call this song "My question"

Giving a smile fit for each situation
Saying plausible words
I go blank
It's about time to end up
Don't pretending to be impassive
No one can live alone
No one can live without love
Though they are matters of course
Now I keenly feel so
You are blaming on this age
But what is the excuse for?
You see?
To talk about love or yumeIs not uncool at all
Whome are the words for?
What is the process for?
What does it mean to live?
If there are definate answers, Don't you think it's boring?
I don't have to hesitate any more
I know what I want to protect
It's too late to turn back,
Which I know very well
Yes, I stand up once again
If there is a wall, we can break it
Don't you think our lives have only just begun?
So long as there is a way, we can open the door
No Door which will lock forever
As there will be a key for each of us

"Seething Misantropic. Audio chronic hallucination" Yk

2006-08-12T04:02:00.000-07:00

Todays Saturday! Woo~! Its the last day of the fireworks display and i hope that im able to catch it. Heard that theres a special surprise at the end. ^^ Ahh... boring boring boring. Thats how i would describe my day today. Theres really nothing to do. And as im writing this post im feeling really tired *yawns*
During the absence of my posts i have been writing two songs. One of them is a sad really sad song about losing one self to greed.. And another is a happy one. I will post them on today and tomorrow.
Please give them your comments be it good or bad so that i might improve on it! ^^

"You lie silent there before me
your tears they mean nothing to me
the wind howling at the windowthe love you never gave
I give to you
Really don't deserve itbut now there's nothing you can do
so sleep in your only memory of me
my dearest mother
Here's a lullaby to close your eyesit was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry oh well
here's a lullaby to close your eyes
So insignificant sleeping dormant deep inside of me
are you hiding away lost
under the sewers maybe flying high in the clouds
perhaps you're happy without me
so many seeds have been sown in the field
and who could sprout up so blessedly if I had died
I would have never felt sad at al
lyou will not hear me say'm sorry
where is the light
wonder if it's weeping somewhere
Here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye
it was always you that I despised
I don't feel enough for you to cry oh well
here's a lullaby to close your eyes good-bye....."

Your comments are appreciated! ^^

" Happiness is something that we should learn to use wisely.." Yk

2006-08-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

Ah today is quite a boring day at school. Nothing much to do accept shatting with friends and the teachers in school. It was before 12 pm when there was a mini movie marathon in school. The movies watched was Silent Hill and Initial D.

I didnt know initial d was so good! The movie was great with an excellent cast. for those of you who might have watch it, i think im like the only one who havent watched it yet, =p the drifting was so good! The funny part was excellent! Loved the part when Itsukit, the self proclaimed car god wanted a gtr and he went like " I want a GTR!" 5 times over. Lol reminded me of a kid asking for candy heh. the romance part of the movie was good too. It was not too cheesy, kept short and simple just the way i like it ^^
Nevertheless im eager for initial d 2 to come out in theaters. ^^

After that i went home and then went for a slow jog around my house which was around 4 pm. Saw a few cats and dogs near my house and i just had to pet them. They were so cute. Little kittens and puppies! Best of all there was no animosity between them. They were snuggled together. Awww....

Tomorrow and Saturday will be so fun! ^^

" I see my vision burn, I feel my memories fade with time. These streets we travel on will undergo our same lost past " Yk

2006-08-09T01:24:00.000-07:00

Heyys todays national day! Well im feelling happy today so i will let my post be short and let you see some really neat pictures Let the pictures speak for themselves! ^^ Happy national day!
Have a great time looking at the pictures! (If you like them please comment on the tagboard!)

"Happiness comes at you in bouts, make sure you cherish them lest they go away. " Yk

2006-08-07T02:02:00.000-07:00

Wow its a new week already, seems like one week passes just so fast.
Ah monday... Many people do not really like this day, monday blues they call it..
Hmm. let me see what i can do... *thinks*
Aha! I got some nice and funny stuff to show ya all. Jokes and pictures. Today shall be the happy post! Hope that these things im gona post will be able to cheer all those who are down today up and all those who are happy even happier! ^^
Take a break have a laugh!

Question one:

Mary's father has five daughters:

1. Nana,

2. Nene,

3. Nini,

4. Nono.

What is the name of the fifth daughter?

Dont see the answers yet try it on your own.

Did you Answer Nunu? NO! Of course it isn't. Her name is Mary.
Read the question again!

A mute person goes into a shop and wants to buy a

toothbrush.

By imitating the action of brushing his teeth he

successfully expresses himself to the shopkeeper and!

the purchase is done.

Next, a blind man comes into the shop who wants to

buy a pair of sunglasses; how does HE indicate what he

wants?

He just has to open his mouth and ask... It's really very simple...

2006-08-06T05:30:00.000-07:00

Ah sunday... a really cooling day indeed. ( except for the morning... its too humid!!)

Its 3 more days till national day and hmm, it is also these days that i seen an increase in the people wearing red and white. Getting into the mood i believe. Are you all in the mood too?
Guess im not really though i enjoy wearing white these days. Heh. ^^ What do you all plan to do during the national day holiday? For me, i plan to stay at home for the first part of the day untill the national day parade live broadcast ends and then i will go out and take a long jog/walk in the night.

Hmm i have a question, how many of you all like the night? ( tell me on the tag board ^^)

The night is truly amazing as you get to see the day in a different perspective. Many things seemingly come alive in the wake of the night. Plus my all time favourate the breeze in the night!
things get really quiet in the night and i take the opportunity to think back on what i have done for the past days. If i have any problems, or something that is just brooding me, it would go away that night.

For today in the afternoon i was practising my jumping. And stuff cus in the later part of the night im going with a few of my friends to break. Its strange that i like to break now ever since i stopped breakdancing for almost a year. Perhaps the thrill of being able to actually achieve something brought back that old flame.

" When pain surpasses your physical state of mind. You become obvilious to it. Never shall i be used again. "

2006-08-05T00:16:00.000-07:00

5th of August.. This day i woke up really early in the morning. Felt kind of weird as i had nothing to do so i went downstairs to work out.
At about 9 am i decided that i should go do my hair so immediately after i washing up i left for the hairdresser.
After that i went walking around Toa Payoh found this really neat wristband and bought it.
It was around 12 pm only when i finished all those things. Since it was windy, i decided that should enjoy nature and walk home slowly.
Hmm thats about what i can post for now, its seemingly unintresting, hope that later i woud have a more intresting day.

"Never trust a person whose excuses are only to protect themselves, those are the worst and most obvious excuses." YK

2006-08-03T17:25:00.000-07:00

Hmm.. guess i have not posted for a while, two days i think?
Well during these two days so much things happened. Its amazing how much situations can change aint that right? Ever thought of this? "What makes you?"
Oh yes, i shall take the time now for a while to thank all those who have visited my blog and commented about it. ^^ Keep on visiting as my blog will not always be on my life, i will post up some things that i might want to share and some of my windmills videos (that is if i find out how to do it, anyone able to help me?)
Recently, i was listening to some music and i want to share this with you all. Check this out.

"Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round
Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see
The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come"

This is an excellent song with excellent lyrics if you actually read it carefully. Its kind of what i have experienced for the past two days i have not posted. IF you are wondering who might this person be. Its Corrinne May singing the song " Everything in its time"

Before i end off this quick post, i would be holding a badminton game, and a chalet at the end of the year anyone who knows me and are intrested to go please leave your name on my tagboard. ^^

" You cannot stop time from moving, but time itself stops when you find that all you trust betrays your very own trust." -Yk

2006-08-01T08:30:00.000-07:00

Something dawned upon me before i went to sleep. a friend of mine called me. Apparently, she was in jc 1 this year. Having not talked to her for a long time, i was surprised that she called me.
After the slight greetings and formalities, i noticed that her voice was not usual. She immediately broke down, spilling out her thoughts that was in her for a long time, turned out that recently she had flunked all her tests though she studied very hard, her project work was left for her all to do and on top of that, she and her boyfriend of two years broke off with a tiff. At that point, in class her friends were all teasing her about her grades.

It all adds up to make a happy person very miserable . I must admit that i was saddened by it. She ended off with blaming all her friends for these things happening, and kept quit for a long period of time. It was this period of time that i talked to her. the first thing i did was to ask her, must she blame her friends for these turn of events? Do they really deserve her wrath?

Firstly, for her project work, it would seem to appear that her group members are not doing their fair share and she has therefore taken it upon herself to ensure that everything is completed.
I told her this, " Only you can give others the permission to walk over you."

I doubt that during the course of her project she had actually given her friends a list of responsibilities to do. She did not. Her role was to allow other people to do tthier best, and she has to fight off the urge to take control of the whole project. AS for her results, she has only one thing to do, that is to study even harder. Failure is only part of life. I too have failed many times, but no matter what it is i manage to pull myself up, though somethings might take a bit longer. About her recent slight tiff with her boyfriend resukting in a break up, I could only say one thing to her. " Love is something that should brave time and obstacles." Her tiff was that she thought that her boyfriend was with other girls as he was talking to other girls more than her and going out with them more often. "Why care?" If you do trust your partner or someone you love (deciding to chase) then dont mind these small matters. I told her to talk to her boyfriend one on one, dosent matter who calls who in this scene.

For me, i like and still do like a certain someone, things like this happen but it does not bother me that much, i might be tinged with jealously at times but in the end i will realise that there is no point in feeling jealous. " Sometimes you find yourself searching for answers because you are not prepared to settle for anything unless it is the answer you are looking for." If you like a person then do your best to chase him/her. At times it is the ability to share your troubles with someone and not the finding of a soultion that is more important.

In the end, she still was not saying anything but im sure that she understood what i said. She was grateful to me as i have helped cure her emotionaly, but truthfully i dont deserve it. Only the person who started having problem will be able to solve it. I was just there to make her realise that fact.

Well hope this incident that happened to me today can help anyone reading this blog who has almost the same situation. ^^

2006-08-01T05:27:00.000-07:00

New month= New resolution.

1. Finish learning my windmill (5 spins) ---Finished learning--- ( Baby swipes now)
2. Make Wednesday a memorable day
3. Make sure i dont overstress myself.
4. Get enough sleep
5. (Not going to tell, people will find out eventually)

Today i felt like my heart kept skipping beats, am i just imagining things or am i really feeling it?
Bought new pack of blueberries and they taste just right, not too sweet and soft to the touch. Went really out of my way to get it. Well it was worth it.
Earlier, when i was at home went downstairs to the playground and practised my windmill, i can do about two spins, that instructional video really helped! Im aiming for about 5 spins then it would be really nice!
Right now, im just getting prepared for tomorrow, speaking of which i better wash the other pack of blueberries. Want them to be nice to share with tomorrow. Hmmm perhaps i will buy strawberry pocky. Should i?

Sometimes when animosity between people clears up its really great. Perhaps what i usually say, " You just gotta be the one to clear things up." Is the best way out of the situation.
I was wondering to myself earlier on, " Sometimes when people are in the backstage helping out, without another person noticing them, do they really get recognised in the end?" I hope they do, but frankly even if they dont, it dosent matter. What matters is that the people they are helping or caring about can go on. Situation like these happens almost everywhere, in me, couples and many other places. Its a wonder how the situation spans right? As for me, I shall be me, uniquely me ^^

Tomorrows wednesday, a best day according to people. It definately will.

2006-07-31T05:54:00.000-07:00

Time for the 2nd part of the day.
To round things up, firstly, after doing up my blog in the earlier part of the afternoon, went back helping some friends with stuff as usual. After that i went to get some blueberry as i was short on it and well Gillian would probably want some on wed or thursday so went to get some more, cant disappoint her can i? It was a promise.
Only to find that there was a lack of supply. Im addicted to blueberry and i cant find ample supply of it ahhhh! Aint that right blueberryheartangel?
No matter, tomorrow the stocks come in so im still able to get it, at least neither party will be disappointed. After getting that, i went around and found a new beige long sleeved casual top from e-base.
Got it since there was some cash on me, and the fact that i havent bought a top for like 1 year. At least i have one more thing other than my formal winged black top to wear for attending formal events or going out.
At around 7 pm, i went downstairs to run around, part of daily regime. And went to practise a bit of my air- walk and styling up my six step. That took about 45 mins. Then i went back home to bathe. Dinner was quick as i had many things to do, marking papers which was supposed to be due today. Right now at this time im just getting about finalising that "sunset" thingy.
Well thats probably most about today.
I know tomorrow will be even better!

"Love and friendship can make or break a person." -Yk

2006-07-31T00:23:00.002-07:00

Heyys everyone its 31st july the last day of the month. ^^ And away with july comes the month of august. National day month heh( Everyone prepared to celebrate .
Today i shall blog for the first half of the day, so far everything seems to be moving so slow. Im feeling extremely tired, probably due to the fact that i did not sleep last night at all.
Was helping my friend with physics just now and now at the moment, im talking to my dear Gillian who is EXTREMELY i repeat EXTREMELY obssessed with her newly bought mp3. Its like her own baby. I was like "My god, you are crazy" (like her lessons today.) But shes really funny and kinda cute?? when she does that. Lol thinking back i too also had a slight obssession with my newly mp3. =P
Well thats all for now perhaps more intresting things will happen later ^^ Strange things do happen at the last day of the month.

2006-07-31T00:23:00.001-07:00

Heyys everyone its 31st july the last day of the month. ^^ And away with july comes the month of august. National day month heh( Everyone prepared to celebrate .
Today i shall blog for the first half of the day, so far everything seems to be moving so slow. Im feeling extremely tired, probably due to the fact that i did not sleep last night at all.
Was helping my friend with physics just now and now at the moment, im talking to my dear Gillian who is EXTREMELY i repeat EXTREMELY obssessed with her newly bought mp3. Its like her own baby. I was like "My god, you are crazy" (like her lessons today.) Lol thinking back i too also had a slight obssession with my newly mp3. =P
Well thats all for now perhaps more intresting things will happen later ^^ Strange things do happen at the last day of the month.

2006-07-29T07:29:00.000-07:00

Yawn..... Aafter so long i believe my blog has become a type of online spider web, hello everyone. Im back.
This will be a short one sadly to say but when i have the time i will blog. but for now, i shall talk about my say today. Besides the fact that im a bit tired today after running in the morning, i learnt a new dish today. It was one of those days that i felt like cooking up a storm so after my run today which ended approximately 7 am, i went to the market to get some stuff. The dish i made today was a dish named 'wu xiang' a typical chinese dish. Filled with a rich filling consisting of meat, prawns, chestnuts, and carrots. Its a delightful delicacy to go with rice.
The experiment was successful after 3 hours of preparing. (making the filling and rolling the wu xiang up)
This night a promise was made. Sunset shall be seen.

"A night to remember is a night commited to being with your loved ones."
-Yk

2006-02-26T00:41:00.000-08:00

^^ Hihi Back again! Wow i really had an intresting week! On the 25 of Feburary 06. I went out with some friends to play some bowling! Which... of course i havent played that for a long time... lol Well me and a group of friends went to Yishun Orchid Country Club to play the bowling. The journey there was filled with much fun and laughter. Well the whole day was filled with loads of it. When we reached there. We were like " Oh my god we were late!" Cus the planned booking time was at three but we reached there at about 3.30. Thankfully, i was still able to initiate the game with little trouble. The game was fun, we played a total of three games. And during the process sort of taught "G" how to play. At the start "G" was pretty unfamililar with bowling as it was her first time playing. But after a few tries and some confidence booster. She did it! She scored like a 6 pointer. Everyone was rooting for her ! I felt really glad when she actually striked the pins. After that everything was much smooth sailing.
Previously, before the bowling game started. Me, "A", "G" decided to form like the "longkang" team. But in the end to my surprise haha "A" actually surpassed me ! She like scored very well and beat me! Well that was really fun! "G" also beat me in the second game lol."H" was not too bad either, she seemed quit on the outside but when the bowling ball rolls, shes like a pro! She scored better than me in a few games and i was like wow! Everyone was getting sorta addicted to the game. Later after the game we took the shuttle bus back To yishun. We then decided to have dinner at Plaza Sing.
Our stomach were pleading for food but there was just too much people at the shopping centre, filling up all the fast food restaurants. finally we settled for eating at the food court. But it took us 10 mins to actually find a empty table and seats for everyone. during dinner, the dinner table was too filled with loads of fun as we joked around. In the end some of us laughed so much and could not finish the food. ^^ After that, we went to shop around for our friend's sister birthday present. Then after shopping and finding the present, we decided it was time to go home. I along with another friend fetched the girls home. But sadly not everyone could be sent home as they were going different routes.
But all in all i felt that the day was really great, after sending home "g" lastly i went home. But along the way i chatted with "G" And "a" for a period of time. Haha "A" was looking for a chance to challenge all of us again ! I really hope that day comes again soon. It shall be even more fun!

"Good Luck for your results ^6 Huggs dont worry you can do it! " I will be roting for ya! (the person will understand it)

2006-02-10T20:47:00.000-08:00

Well hello again everyone ! im back and im back for good! And this time im making sure im blogging often... Well, ever since i have been away, there has been ups and downs.
Before i share anything further, let me share with you a little something i made...

Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless
Dearest the shadows I live with are numberlessLittle white flowers will never awaken you
Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you?
Gloomy Sunday
Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it allSoon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad I know
Let them not weep let them know that I'm glad to go
Death is no dream for in death I'm caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday
Dreaming, I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, here
Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

This was the song i composed and i found it quite a beautiful song. Please post your comments. ^^
If possible im gona post up the mp3 for this song i made playing my guitar.

Well im going to do a little soething for people reading up my blog.. If somehow you all have any things up in yr mind and wish to eralte to me. You can post under my comments and i will lend a listening ear to you. Sometimes i believe if you just say things out you just might feel that tinny tiny bit better so dont worry! Just post! Nothing to fear!
well im gonna go now expect my next entry very soon!

Ying Kai-

2005-10-31T05:25:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone!

Well my o levels are coming very soon in like less than 1 week.
You know sometimes, i have this real strange feeling that i do not belong, I feel saddened and hurt by peoples words. This made me want to be stronger so i became more oblivious to the words people tell me. Sadly, that sometimes have been mistaken as me being a jerk or well something like that. Seriously i think to my self and stare in the night sky and wonder who i really am? So far i hav lost 1 friend due to a misunderstanding. As much as i want to patch it back, the other party seemed to have break contact with me. Well its ok, well im probably one of those people who get misunderstood easily. At least i had not done anything wrong.

Love is a painful thing, i have been in it. My heart was broken many many times... Seriously i cry at night 1 year ago. (Some guy huh?). Well i cry (well not that much ) cus some words go straight into my heart like a stake through a vampire's heart. Strangely till this day im still waiting to be accepted by someone who can bear with me. Somewho who can stay by my side. Well as they say patience is a virtue

To be capable of steady friendship or lasting love, are the two greatest proofs, not only of goodness of heart, but of strength of mind. This is very true, to love one needs the strength of a mind. A great mind in fact, sometimes you might have certain trouble with your companion. Sometimes your companion gets angry with you. The best thing to do is to give in to him or her. That way no one will stay angry that long. Tis a sad thing for people together to be angry with each other but hey thats life!

To end this thing today i suppose i end it with this one sentence. As the ocean is never full of water, so is my heart never full of love...

"I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through" - Anon.

2005-09-14T00:04:00.000-07:00

Yo everyone! Ying Kai here. ^^ well my internet is down so i cannot enter my blog until probably next week. But next week i would post the stuff i miss from this week so watch out for the new posts! Until then stay cool. Peace out ^^
(P.S) Using my friend's computer.

2005-09-07T21:27:00.000-07:00

"The great secret of success is self-discipline - getting yourself to do whatyou really need to do - choosing to do what you feel is right and will bring theresults you want into your life - long term. It is bringing order and efficiency into your life-. . . creating structure in your life and doing this enthusiastically!Success comes from taking charge of yourself and feeling proud of yourself when you do. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans." ^^
To all those who have they EOY's (End of Year's) exams and those who are taking important Nation Exams. This is for you all.

2005-09-07T16:34:00.000-07:00

"What are your hobbies?" Most people ask me. Well now that i have a blog, i suppose i can share it with everyone. ^^
Well my hobbies are as follows, drumming. breakdancing, Le parkour, guitaring. Well i find that these things when i do them takes me to a different realm, a realm where i can focus, a chance to me to gain confidence as i am not a confident person when i was young. I have started drumming when i was 6 years old? Lolx and it has always been my passion. I go to the arcade to jam. ("I want to be like him!!!!" Above)

See this picture? Well i hope that i can have a drum set like him ^^ lolx Kinda impossible but well what will we be without dreams right? =D

On to breakdancing, the first time i sw someone break, i was like " WOW ! You mean we can do that?????!!!" Our bodies are free to flow. As what i usually say to myself, "Tell me how you move and i tell you who you are" We do not limit ourselves to what we can do. Everythng is acheivable when we try. thus i started to learn how to break. But there was one problem.... WHO CAN TEACH ME!!! Sighzzz.... Well what i did was to go download some videos of people breaking and learn it from there. When i have the time, i would head down to the esplanade to look at the people break. Though i seriously fall and broke a few of my bones at times (ouch) i still have not given up on breaking.

("Starting off" on the left)

Well thats about it for now. ^^ For some of you all you might find that i have not go into detail about Le Parkour. That would probably be my next entry ^^ till then stay cool!

2005-09-07T13:36:00.000-07:00

Finally after so long, i have started a blog again. My previous blog was www.theonereality.blogspot.com and now this would be my recent one.
Strange as it is, i am still not so sure on how to use this blog service. But well as time passes, i'm sure i would get it. ^^

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2005-09-06T22:29:00.000-07:00